Confrontation, Fear, Evolution, Effort, Swimming What a month April has been…. So many things happened. So fast. Didn’t even realize month came to its end until this morning. And with that thought, came the realization I wanted to write my monthly post Confrontation & Fear The month was so full I vaguely remember the intense … Continue reading Confrontation, Fear, Evolution, Effort, Swimming
the sun rises and shines again in all different kinds & forms this is a mid-february 8:30am winter sun the sea was calm and as the photo depicts, this “post-apocalyptic” spooky sunny feeling was in the air it was a beautiful day, or so my training diary says. can’t really remember. can’t remember the specific … Continue reading the sun rises and shines again
Good morning my friend, Thanks for taking the time to read one of my posts and for getting back to me. I wasn't too shocked with your words. It is true. I need to man up, own my mistakes and move on. And to the extent that I can, I try to do so. Did … Continue reading Letter to a friend
Yes, once more I am stuck in the corner. The financial corner. My own mental/psychological corner. The despair corner. A narcissistic father on one end - controlling, self-interested, manipulative, not being able to rely on him to just believe in me and truly want me to live the life I want to live. Yes, yes, … Continue reading Stuck in the corner
This is how calm you left us. Our souls are grey as the sky and calm as the sea. You left us, but you are with us. You “baptized” me in this sea. You “baptized” me into winter swimming. You reignited my passion and love for swimming; for swimming, for racing, for competing, for wanting … Continue reading fly away…sail away…swim away…
And suddenly life becomes so busy…. that I must set a tomato-timer on to write even the monthly post…. If you don’t know what tomato-timer is, check https://tomato-timer.com/ I have found it as a very helpful way to be able to focus for set amounts of time (you can customize it), take a small or … Continue reading And suddenly life becomes so busy….
and you walk on the small side streets……trying to calm down….to escape….to understand what the fuck is happening…. this is not the neighbourhood you grew up…. not the neighbourhood you were wandering around with your friends as kids…. with your bicycles, cycling aimlessly but with effort, with vigour, going up & down the hills, sweating, … Continue reading how it should be…..how it could be…..how it would be nice to be…..
🧡 It’s okay not to be okay 🧡 💜 It’s time to talk 💜 How I describe my depression- my story Invisible I never had an “invisible friend” when I was a child. At the beginning of my teenage years though I developed an “invisible enemy” and to this day I still have it. Just … Continue reading Mental health awareness day 2018 — lifecanbebeautiful
My emotions this month has been exactly like the two photos. Grey and sunny, and sunny and grey, and grey and sunny, and sunny and grey…. and they twist every second, every minute, every hour, every day….it has been fucking nuts…. I’m exhausted By no means has this month not being productive, … Continue reading sunny sunset – grey sunset
The tamarisk tree. It thrives on sea-side environments via its natural ability to feed off from salty water (apparently its leaves have a dual role - after the tree "filters the sea-water", remaining salt gets released through the leaves. the second role is on humid days when the leaves manage to "grab" the humidity from … Continue reading The tamarisk tree
and the mind drifts…gets lost…gets upset…. gets depressed…and doesn’t understand why… or perhaps it does. Another month gone. Another month passed by. My brain, my emotions, all feeling disappointed. Dissatisfied. Feeling another month went by without achieving anything remarkable, without “enjoying life” (what does it actually means, “enjoy life” makes me wonder) …. Reality is … Continue reading and the mind drifts
(mostly a note to myself…and shit scared for sharing it…. easier to share my shit moments & troubles instead of my small successes….) This month (of June 2018) I set my goal to write a post with a full on positive vibe… Just finished my swim workout and having my post workout breakfast! A … Continue reading writing on a high…!