Before midnight… Rushing to get this post out…before midnight…must meet the monthly deadline…. Funny how the mind sets its own challenges and wants to meet up to its own expectations Two and a half years ago I started writing this blog as a way to let it all out. Help myself speak to someone about … Continue reading Before midnight…
you go through life and you wonder a lot of times. what you did wrong, what you did right. you wonder who you are. you wonder whether everything you lived so far is real or not. whether someone has already pre-planned your life for you. whether each and every move you make is under surveillance … Continue reading miracles & love
3-4 years ago I went through an extensive period where I would have a quick midday nap and I would wake up sweating, heart beating like crazy and my brain would be overwhelmed with thoughts.... why did I arrive in this life? what is the meaning of it all? what have I achieved? will I … Continue reading dying. what have I done in my life. thoughts.
I just re-read my very first post. The About me post. Who I was, 2 and a bit years ago. It is so interesting because somehow all the pain, the anger, the being lost, the questioning of whether I am a loser or not…seem to not be in my brain any more (those are … Continue reading When you decide to give in and to let go….
Friends For years now, I managed to keep in distance people who had a negative effect on me. To be honest, I have been pushed away myself by people I affected negatively too. Clearly, I never enjoyed trying to talk or be in contact with someone and being pushed away, but it appears it goes … Continue reading Friends
and so did I.... it probably is less than an hour since I was riding my scooter back home after my Sunday morning easy going run and I realized January 2020 had finished 2 days ago...and I hadn't posted my monthly post stressful thoughts popped in my head immediately .....have I started losing touch with … Continue reading sometimes you forget…
2 years ago, almost same day like today, I decided to let it all out.... my feelings, my emotions, my story, my thoughts, my anger, my frustration, the things that inspire me, everything that came out from my heart no filtering, no correcting, no agenda just letting it all out as they jumped out of … Continue reading 2 years!
This lovely girl. It must have been 7-8 years since we met by the sea The conversation, that flaws so naturally A common love for sea & swimming that brings a bonding spirit between us The ability to listen to what we both are going through; where the pain & the joy are shared effortlessly … Continue reading Love!
A good month Nailed it!!! Not the one to usually brag about myself, but this month was a good one Making some small profit on a project I started with a friend 7 months ago definitely helped. More so, since it was the first month when everything started falling in place. My mentality, approach, psychology … Continue reading a good month!
Today I came back home, opened the door and my father was sitting in a chair looking totally miserable. I just disregarded him, went to my room and thought "oh well, his typical narcissistic behavior - let me play the sad one so my son pays attention to me. once he opens up and gets … Continue reading Change
The rollercoaster month even this post has been a rollercoaster. I started writing it and immediately a page and a half were filled with hate & poison that I feel as a great fellow blogger (joypassiondesire) wrote on a recent post “you have to let those mental scars heal themselves like the body heals when … Continue reading the rollercoaster month
definitely a month of confusion.....with same experiences viewed from two different perspectives..... 1. Love coward This last month I have been very confused Things started coming together A company I approached in January contacted me and I started working part time for them - as per my wishes (they wanted me to work more hours, … Continue reading Love Coward Fighter